I was very
moved last Monday to take note of the seventy-fifty anniversary of the
liberation of Auschwitz by the Red Army in 1945. As all my readers must surely
know by now, the Shoah is the backdrop against which I’ve lived out both my
professional and spiritual lives for as long as I can remember. And although I
could make some sort of semi-rational argument for not feeling personally
involved to that degree—my own people, after all, came to these shores long
before the First World War—that is not at all how things have played out. Nor
is it at all difficult for me to explain why the Shoah looms so large in my
thinking: surely no one who professes belief in a just, caring, God can just
wave Auschwitz away as a mere aberration in a millennia-long narrative
featuring God as the ever-watchful Guardian of Israel who neither slumbereth
nor sleepeth. That thought, of course, comes directly from the Bible—from the
121st psalm, to be exact—and has been recited by so many rabbis
(including myself) at so many funerals so as almost to sound more like a truism
to be embraced than a challenge to be faced. And yet that is precisely not how
it works—or has ever worked—for me: in those few words lies the weight that
has been pressing down my shoulders from above for my entire adult life.
The summer
after I defended my doctoral dissertation but before I began work in earnest on
preparing my thesis for publication, I attempted to write a book of
post-Holocaust theology. In retrospect, it feels like just so much youthful
hubris to have allowed myself blithely to wander into a maze which even rabbis
scores of years older than myself had failed successfully to negotiate. On the
other hand, surely one of the great gifts of youth is the willingness to run a
race merely because it exists and wholly without reference to other people’s
successes or failures at running it! Nor was this just a gauntlet I
wanted to take up as a way of measuring myself against others, but rather a
real challenge that I needed to address for my own internal reasons and not
simply to see if I could do better than others in addressing them.
As I’ve
mentioned before in this space, the Jewish communities of my
great-grandparents’ towns in Poland and Belarus were totally annihilated during
the war, the only survivors at all being not “real” survivors at all but merely
people like my great-grandparents and grandparents who left decades earlier. So
perhaps it was that detail—combined, I admit, with the seminal experience of
surreptitiously reading Ilya Ehrenburg and Vasily Grossman’s The Black Book
of Soviet Jewry: The Ruthless Murder of Jews by German-Fascist
Invaders Throughout the Temporarily-Occupied Regions of the Soviet Union and in
the German Nazi Death Camps Established on Occupied Polish Soil During the War
1941–1945 as a boy of eleven or twelve, the single
experience that, at least in retrospect, I think probably affected my
adolescence more profoundly than any other—it was the contemplation of the fate
of the Jews our “our” towns in Europe that created the context for me to feel
called personally to attempt to create a plausible version of Jewish theology
that specifically led through, not around, the gates of the camps.
I cast
around for a long time trying to find a way in. I read all the standard books
of post-Shoah theology and found most of them all to be wanting in some
specific way. (And some I found wanting in every way.) The best of them, I
noted, were predicated on the supposition that the Holocaust was basically a cosmic
riddle in need of a solution. If God knew
about Auschwitz as people were being murdered there in such unimaginable
numbers, then either it either was or was not beyond the scope of divine
power to save them. If it was within the scope of God’s might to save
them, then either they were not saved for a real, cogent reason or they
were left unrescued for no particular reason at all. But because both of the
above apodoses—the “then” clauses—are fully inconsonant with traditional Jewish
belief, most of the authors I read ended up proposing that the Jewish people in
the post-war era simply make their peace with living on the horns of the
terrible dilemma that requires supposing either that God could have saved the
millions but didn’t (which effectively negates the notion of divine mercy
enduring forever), or that God would have saved the millions but couldn’t
(which negates the notion of divine omnipotence), or that God would have saved
the millions and could have but was simply unaware that they needed saving
(which effectively denies the notion of divine omniscience). There was, I
admit, a certain wistful cogency to this line of reasoning. But the thought
that Jews in the post-Shoah era are condemned by their own history—by our own
history—to live forever balanced on the horns of an unresolvable dilemma did
not sound like something I could imagine myself teaching others or, to speak
frankly, embracing as my own theological stance either.
I needed
to take a different tack, therefore, one that would sidestep the
Shoah-as-a-cosmic-puzzle motif entirely. For a while, I considered my options.
And then, when I felt I had no real choice but to rise to my own challenge, I
began to write about the Shoah as the shadow cast on the earth by the demonic
realm.
When
most moderns think about demons, they think about Halloween-style imps with
pitchforks and devilish horns. But that is just the paper-thin veneer that somehow
manages to obscure millennia of speculation about a demonic realm and the
dangers too close proximity to its boundaries can pose to unwary travelers.
It’s hard to think of another area of Jewish culture that has more totally been
forgotten, however. The ignoramus who wrote that “Judaism does not have a
demonology, or any set of doctrines about demons” in the Wikipedia article on
demonology, for example, could not possibly have been more wrong. But he or she
is in good company!
The
Bible is full of demons who function as evil spirits sent from on high to
tempt, to seduce, or to test the moral mettle of uncareful mortals. Some of
their names are almost well known, while others are obscure. But Mavet, Lilith,
Reshef, Azazel, and Dever—among many other unnamed sheidim of various
sorts—are a real part of ancient Israelite heritage. The Talmud is even more full of demons and
malevolent sprites, but it is in kabbalistic literature that Jewish demonology
reaches its fullest flower: entire works, some many hundreds of pages long,
were composed to describe the world of demons, to speculate regarding the
relationship of King Samael and Queen Lilith, and to muse about the plausible
ways the demonic realm exists as the dark edge of all existence, as the shadow
cast by life itself on the living, as the living embodiment of the evil
inclination and the almost irresistible will to behave sinfully to which all
but the greatest tzaddikim occasionally succumb. (Readers interested in
learning more can profitably consult Joshua Trachtenberg’s Jewish Magic and
Superstition, published in 1934 but still in print and still very readable
and useful.)
So that
was the vineyard in which I chose to labor. It allowed me to avoid the
theology-as-unresolvable-paradox trap and instead to imagine the Nazi hordes as
an army of unholy demons in the thrall of King Samael, as the embodiment not of
German imperialist chauvinism or even of German anti-Semitism but of the dark
forces of evil that only the moral force of those committed to the service of
God can keep at bay…and that even so occasionally overwhelm their
opponents just as the sea occasionally rises up over beach and sea wall to
wreak havoc on those unfortunates who live too close to the sea always to
escape its wrath. I imagined the Einsatzgruppen that travelled across Ukraine
and other parts of Nazi-occupied Eastern Europe with the sole mission of
murdering the entire Jewish population in whatever town or village they found
traces of Jewish life—I imagined the members of those killing squads not as men
or even as beasts, but as part of a demonic horde that exists in the first
place to destroy any who serve God and who promulgate God’s word in the world.
I worked
for almost a year on that book and eventually finished it. But I never
published it, never felt confident enough to show it around to publishers or,
even, to too many colleagues or friends. Eventually, I took one chapter, the
one about King Samael, and published it in the margins of the Sabbath and
Festivals volume of Siddur Tzur Yisrael.
But I abandoned the rest of the project, uncertain of my own conclusions
and yet unable seriously to come up with an alternate explanation of how men
and women who in their “regular” lives were bakers, schoolteachers, and letter
carriers could suddenly turn into the kind of people who could shoot babies in
their mothers’ arms, who could murder entire villages of people, who could
display a level of cold-hearted cruelty that cannot even be referenced
as “bestial” since it is impossible to imagine actual animals displaying that
level of callous brutality and heartless malice towards each other.
As I
read about the symposium in Jerusalem that attracted so many international
personalities and then about the parallel commemoration last week in Poland at
Auschwitz itself, and I read the stories of survivors and their descendants in
article after article on-line and in print—I was brought back to that project.
I called the book then The Dark Lamp, a phrase used in the Zohar to
denote energy that exists to obscure rather than to illuminate, to cast shadows
rather than light. I even re-read a few chapters, curious to see how my prose would
stand up after all these years. I haven’t ever shared the details of that
project with anyone before. I’m not even sure that I’m doing the right thing by
sharing them now. But I find myself more sure than ever that I was right, that
the sole way to keep faith with traditional Jewish beliefs without feeling
obliged to look away from the details surrounding the Nazi war against the Jews
is to seek refuge in the realm of the demonic and to cultivate the sense that
it surely must be as important to note that the forces of evil were eventually
beaten back and defeated as it is that they surged forth in the first place,
briefly—and unimaginably tragically—overwhelming the barriers erected in the
first place to protect the world from their fury, from their rage. Should I
publish my book now? I suppose I might! (But maybe not.)