One of the hallmarks of text study as we pursue it in our Friday morning Chumash class at Shelter Rock is the way we focus on the minor fissures in the narrative—the discrepancies, the slight contradictions, the instances of inner-textual illogic, the places in which the text self-contradicts in ways that readers see easily but that the text itself seems not to notice—and take those the apparent “errors” in the text to point to truths hiding just beneath the narrative surface. I can’t claim to have invented this method of text study, although I can also say that I don’t know any setting in which it is more vigorously pursued than on Friday mornings at Shelter Rock. This method is at the core of my own as-yet-unpublished Torah commentary as well and derives directly, at least in terms of my own willingness to engage with it, from the decades I’ve spent listening to congregants, trying to help them unravel their own narratives, counselling them in times of stress and distress, and offering interpretations of their own stories that I hope will be useful to them.
In that latter context as well, you see, it is often the case
that the way into the deeper meaning of someone’s personal story is through discrepancy,
inconsistency, and narrative discordance. In other words, when the story I’m
being told that I’m being told doesn’t quite match the story I actually am being
told, then the careful dissection of that discordance is often precisely the
context in which the most interesting truths can surface. Theodor Reik, the
only one of Freud’s inner-circle disciples not to have also been a practicing
physician, wrote a classic book called Listening with the Third Ear in
which he described his career as a listener in similar terms, explaining
specifically how the real skill for any psychoanalyst to master is the art of
hearing what the speaker leaves unsaid (that’s what it means to listen with the
“third” ear) and how that specific ability often derives directly from taking incongruity
in even a simply told story seriously and thoughtfully.
I mention all this today because I’d like to suggest that
what applies to text study and to any counselor’s effort to listen with his or
her third ear also applies to religion and that it is often precisely in those
instances of disconnect between theory and reality that lie some of the most
interesting truths.
Rosh Hashanah is an excellent example. Presented in our
prayerbooks over and over as the commencement of the season of judgment, as the
day on which the great Book of Life in the heavenly tribunal is opened and all
are summoned to stand as defendants before Judge God, any reasonable observer
would expect the mood in our communities—both in synagogue and at home—to be,
to say the very least, somewhere between dour and somber. And yet that is not
at all how I experience Rosh Hashanah or how anyone does: for Jewish families,
Rosh Hashanah is a very happy, warm, satisfying time of the year, a time of
communal warmth, a time for families (in non-pandemic mode) to gather, to eat
together, and to enjoy spending time in each other’s company. The whole
experience is far more encouraging than discouraging. And in that discrepancy
between the natural ill ease that should attend the notion of being
judged for one’s sinful behavior and the way in which the holiday actually is
experienced—that is precisely the kind of fissure in the larger narrative
that reveals a secret that would otherwise be hidden from view.
I suppose you could interpret that discrepancy in lots of
different ways, but for me personally the disconnect has to do with the concept
of confidence. We all know the many ways in which we have done poorly in the year
drawing to a close and could surely have tried harder to do good in the world.
But we endlessly use the phase Avinu Malkeinu to reference Judge God
because we feel—not because we have any right to, but because we almost
universally do anyway—we sense that God’s judgment of us all will be
more similar to the way parents evaluate their children’s behavior indulgently
and kindly than to the way that harsh, merciless judges evaluate the behavior
of the defendants who are tried in their courtrooms. So Avinu (“our
Father”) comes before Malkeinu (“our King”) because that is how we feel
things to be as the Book of Life is finally turned to our personal pages and
the Judge decides what the coming year should bring each of us personally. And
it is that sense of hopeful confidence that we bring to the pews and to our
holiday tables, one that makes us aware that, for all we have entered the season
of divine judgment, our heavenly Judge can still be reasonably expected to be as
forgiving as parents are of their own children’s missteps, errors of judgment,
and ethical blunders.
And that brings me to New Year’s Day 2021. We certainly should
be on tenterhooks about more or less everything. There are several new
vaccines that should bring the COVID era to its welcome close…but the
government has yet to explain how exactly it plans to inoculate all 330 million
Americans in a way that is effective, fair, and well-organized, let alone
how to administer two different shots to each of us. (And on top of that, new
strains of the virus continue to evolve, thus making it unclear how effective
the current vaccines will actually be in eradicating the virus totally.) The
incoming administration has promised to take environmental issues seriously and
to promote legislation accordingly…but much of the damage to the environment
permitted by the outgoing administration is apparently far too severe to be undone
merely by counter-decree. (And on top of that, it is far from clear that
Congress will be at all eager to support that kind of initiative anyway. For
more, click here.) Racial justice issues have come to the fore in a way that
would have seemed, to say the least, unlikely even just a couple of years
ago…and yet it’s hard to see any actual progress as unarmed black men continue
to be shot and killed by police officers who are supposed to know how to arrest
unarmed individuals without shooting them…and as recently as this last week in
Columbus, Ohio. (For more on that incident, click here.) And on top of that, the Supreme Court has formally declined
to review the rule the prevents citizens from suing police officers accused of
misconduct despite the fact that that rule makes change much less likely.) I
can go on. The problems facing the nation are grave, their solutions far from
obvious. We should all be racked with anxiety. Of the top five issues
facing the incoming administration, not a single one comes tied to an obvious,
simple solution (click here for such a list, but maybe pour yourself a giant whiskey
first). And on top of all that the Congress itself remains riven, and the
possibility of self-induced governmental paralysis as real as it’s ever been.
So we should all be in a state of high anxiety seasoned with
large dollops of angst and ill ease. And yet…as 2021 dawns, I feel myself
inexplicably hopeful. Maybe it’s the concept itself of a new year as a kind of tabula
rasa in time that exists, at least so far, only in theory…and thus also in
a kind of unsullied, pristine perfection. As we look forward, we see a year in
which no one has been unfairly hurt or discriminated against, in which no one’s
trust has been betrayed, in which no act of kindness has been repaid with
uncaring or harshness. As we peer, together and separately, into the future, we
see a stretch of as-yet-unwritten history in which disputes–including
international ones—can theoretically be resolved fairly and justly, in which
citizens of all political orientations can potentially join together to act
together for the strengthening of the union and the betterment of all its
constituent parts, in which individuals faced with aggressive incivility can
seek and gain redress without having to take to the streets to demand it.
I suppose that rabbis are supposed to think of Rosh Hashanah
as the “real” New Year’s Day, not January 1. But I somehow manage to live in
both those houses at once: part of me easily thinks of today as falling somewhere
in the first half of 5781, while another part of me—the part that answers
easily when asked that my birthday is in June, not Sivan, and that I got
married in December, not Kislev—that part of me really does think of a new year
as dawning on January 1. And so I leave you all with a few lines Walt Whitman
wrote a cool 172 years ago as he contemplated the dawn of 1848, words that feel
to me as fresh and inspiring as they must have back then to Whitman’s readers
and admirers: “Days of a coming year promising change, / Yet full of promises,
we need but watch / And pray for guardianship to come / Over caprices and all
foolish ways! / So shall bright sunshine in advancing days / And starry
invitations leads to Heavenly praise.” Amen to that!