Like most of you, I suspect, I’ve
spent last week and this week floating in and out of the nightly Democratic and
Republican convention coverage on television. I suppose political conventions
are always three- or four-day-long infomercials pitched primarily at
undecided voters, but somehow seeing it all (or mostly all) unfold on Zoom has
made that feel even more acutely to be the case. Still, what was I expecting?
Conventions are hardly the context in which politicians candidly and openly
discuss their shortcomings, weaknesses, failures, or moral flaws. (That never
actually happens, of course, at least not in public, let alone on television—only
it somehow doesn’t happen even more acutely in the context of these massive quadrennial
conventions.)
Just as I suppose also does every
other American, I really do understand that it’s all about selling the product.
It’s just hard for me to watch night after night without feeling just a bit
like Diogenes the Cynic. One of the greatest Greek philosophers, he was as
peculiar a man as they come. He declined a salary for his teaching and
preferred instead to beg for coins in the marketplace. He chose not to live in
a normal home, but preferred to sleep at night in a broken human-sized ceramic
jug owned by the local Temple of the goddess Cybele and provided to him as the
most basic lodging imaginable. He owned one single item, a clay bowl…until he
realized he could scoop his food up with his hand and eat it that way,
whereupon he smashed his bowl as a way of divesting himself of what he now saw
as a superfluous possession. His most famous stunt—one among many—was wandering
around Athens in full daylight with a lit torch in his hands. People would see
him behaving so oddly and ask what he was doing, which was the whole point: he
would then look at them and explain that he was out searching for an honest
man. After two weeks of watching convention television, I know exactly how he
felt!
Maybe it’s Elul. Of all the
months of the Jewish year, none is as special—to me personally, at least—as
Elul. Admittedly, it’s not an obvious choice. Elul has no holidays, no special
days at all. For rabbis of all stripes, myself absolutely included, it is a
time of frenzied writing and rewriting as the horrible prospect of having to
stand up on Rosh Hashanah and not have the most compelling, interesting, and
uplifting sermon possible ready to go looms large on the terror-horizon. On top
of all that, I’ve almost always lived in places where it is beastly hot and
humid towards the end of August, thereby making even something as normally
refreshing as going for a walk to clear your mind and re-organize your thoughts
a minor misery. And yet, despite it all, Elul is still my absolute favorite
month, the month I look forward to all year. And that is for one reason only,
really: because Elul is our national month of introspection, of self-scrutiny,
of the kind of soul-searching that comes naturally to almost none and yet which
is at the heart of the way in which traditional Jews prepare for the holiday
season.
It is not a particularly pleasant
undertaking, this effort to look deep within. And yet it can also be satisfying
and inspiring, even encouraging. Indeed, the very thought that we are not prisoners
held in place by the various negative character traits we’ve developed over the
decades is the single most invigorating idea I grapple with each year.
Like most people, I claim to hate
that feeling of being mired in a slough of my own making. But that’s only what I
say to the world—that I hate feeling trapped in my own life—but the truth is
that, like most people, I actually revel in that sense of being trapped, of
living in a maze I’m not quite bright enough to exit, of having no real choice
left in life but to accept who I am and to be the man I’ve become. After all,
if I have no choice but to play with the cards that I’ve somehow dealt myself
over the years, then why not just accept myself as I am and be done with it?
Nothing is more satisfying, after all, than feeling optionless, therefore noble
and rational in accepting how things are without whining or wasting endless amounts
of time trying to alter immutable reality.
And then Elul comes along and
says—wordlessly, in that weird out-of-language way that time speaks to its
prisoners, which is everybody—Elul comes and informs us without saying a
word that that isn’t really how things are, that we actually aren’t slaves at
all. And that Elul-based realization is the lens through which I’ve been watching
these last weeks’ political conventions.
The point of the conventions is
to make you want to vote for a specific party’s candidate this November. That’s
why they promote their nominees so aggressively: to inspire the undecided to
decide for their ticket by depicting its occupants as all the things they
party-czars have concluded undecided voters want the most to see in their
leaders. Interestingly for parties so completely different in terms of their
approaches to most things, these qualities are not all that different. And so
are both candidates for president depicted by their promoters as having
basically the same set of virtues: courage, compassion, insight, unbounded
patriotism, and integrity. But, for all I also esteem all those things, what
Elul makes me want to see in a candidate more than any of the above is a deep,
abiding sense of humility.
I want a candidate to speak about
the COVID-pandemic and say, look, I’m not a physician, let alone a trained
epidemiologist. I’m not a scientist or a researcher. I’m a politician. And
therefore I admit openly that I don’t really have any idea how to deal with
this nightmare that has come upon us. But I will find people who actually are
experts, who actually are trained professionals, who actually do have
some ideas about how best to tackle the challenges that the pandemic has thrust
upon us…and I will follow their advice. I will listen carefully. I’ll ask all
the questions I can think of, but when a consensus emerges among our nation’s
brightest and most qualified scientists about how to deal with this national
catastrophe that has already taken so many from us, that consensus will be the
basis for national policy.
My mother used to tell me that
the sign of being a truly smart person is knowing what you don’t know. I doubt the
teenaged-me knew what she was talking about. Or maybe I did on some level, but
I doubt I understood just how profound a point my Mom was actually making. In
the fifth act of As You Like It, when Duke Frederick’s court jester, a
man named Touchstone, recalls the old saying according to which “the fool doth
think he is wise, but the wise man knows himself to be a fool,” he is saying
more or less the same truth that my mother wanted me to embrace: that the key
to wisdom is understanding how little, not how much, you know of the world and then
acting accordingly.
Politicians are neither
economists nor historians, neither scientists nor anthropologists. And that is
precisely why the key quality necessary to negotiate the various straits in
which the nation finds itself is humility. To understand the racial politics of
our day requires a profound understanding of nineteenth- and twentieth-century
American history…with a good background in the culture of race as it evolved
even earlier on as the nation’s founders were creating the Constitution. To understand the Middle East in all of its
complexity requires not merely understanding the byzantine process that
eventually led to the imperialist nations of Europe—and foremost among them
France and the U.K.—carving up the Levant and creating make-believe nations
that suited no one’s interest but their own, but a serious grounding in ancient
history as well and, at that, in the various events of late antiquity of which
the ethnic reality of today’s Middle East is reflection and development. To
understand the potentially catastrophic effects of global warming—on the
weather, on the sea level, on the quality of air and water, and on the
potential for world-wide cataclysm within the lifetimes of our children and
grandchildren—to understand anything at all about the environment requires not
only a background in geology, climatology, and physics, but—even more
importantly—an overall understanding of how the various branches of scientific
inquiry come together to create a cogent picture of what the next century might
bring to our beleaguered planet.
No one—with no exceptions at
all—is a master of all those domains, let alone of all those I’ve just
mentioned and all the others I haven’t. Politicians, as noted, are neither scientists
nor scholars. Perhaps that’s how things have to be. (That the German chancellor
actually does have a doctorate in chemistry merely makes her the exception that
proves the rule. But even Mrs. Merkel doesn’t have training in any of the other
disciplines mentioned above.) Nothing feels easier than “just” saying that and
moving on to moan about something else. But Elul teaches us differently.
Knowing what you don’t know is real knowledge. Wisdom always rests on a
foundation of profound humility. Promoting yourself as possessed of a
meaningful plan for the future at the same time you seem unable honestly to
evaluate your own lack of training in more or less every single one of the
disciplines necessary to develop a game plan rooted in reason—that is just bluster
and self-promotion. Elul doesn’t teach us to evaluate people who function
without any awareness of their own limitations unkindly. But to lead the
nation, the would-be leader needs to face the future with self-effacing
humility and with a commitment to seek counsel from people who actually are entitled
to their opinions. Nothing more! But, if a candidate wants my personal vote in
November, also nothing less!