Is there
something perverse, or at least bizarre, about celebrating the beginning of a
new year precisely when the physical world is winding down, as its season of burgeoning
growth ends and the earth itself begins its slow but inexorable descent through
decay and decline into its annual experience of frozen, lifeless—or at least apparently
lifeless—sleep? A little bit, there is!
You’ve surely
noticed the changes afoot in the world just lately, in our world. A flash of
yellow or even red leaves here and there…not the full monty of autumnal color
just quite yet, but the intimation of that riot of color that seems so
alive and yet which, as any sober botanist will tell you, is actually a sign of
decay and deterioration: healthy, growing leaves are green, not red! A chill in the air early in the morning when
you head out to retrieve the paper from the driveway or to put the garbage cans
on the curb before the appointed pick-up hour.
(I found myself reaching for a jacket the other day without even
thinking about it much as I headed out to minyan in the morning. And I
was glad I did!) The neighborhood cats seem to be gearing up for the winter
too, although even I am not entirely sure what I mean by that—they just seem
to be out and about more obviously at dusk, perhaps gathering up
acorns for the cold winter months to
come. (Do cats eat acorns? If I were a cat, I suppose I’d know.) I’ve seen a
few more raccoons wandering around the neighborhood too just recently. The
squirrels look a bit more plump than usual too, including the one with the huge
tail who likes to sit on our deck and watch me work there in the late
afternoon.
And so is born
the paradox of our temperate climate: the physical world in these tepid
latitudes is never more beautiful or more soul-stirring than when it is on the
verge of its annual demise.
Why do I love it
so? And I do love it. In fact, I’ve always loved the fall colors, always felt
myself stirred in a deep, visceral way by the yellow and reds of autumn. I like
the way the world turns green in springtime and, like everybody, I like the
warm summer weather. (For some reason, I particularly like swimming in the
ocean. And that is definitely something that I only do when the weather is at
its warmest.) But there is something in the fall…in the smell of the leaves as
they fall to the ground, in the brightness of their colors, of the strange
blueness of the sky particularly when the air is cold and the sunlight bright
and yellow…there is something in all of that that moves my soul and
makes me feel part of the natural world in a way that the other seasons suggest
a bit but fail actually to stimulate in any truly meaningful way.
Sukkot is part of that set of ideas as well. It is, by all accounts, an odd holiday. We build sukkot that thin the boundary we generally wish to be thick and firm between indoors and outdoors, between the civilized world symbolized by our climate-controlled, electronically secure, comfortably upholstered homes and the natural world that exists uncontrolled by ourselves beyond the boundaries of our property. And then, having thinned the boundary, we proceed to ignore it as we transgress (to use the word literally for once) in both directions: we bring our china and our stemware out into the natural world, into the flimsy hut that can barely protect itself, let alone ourselves and the treasures we casually deposit within its burlap walls…and we take the lulav and bind willow and myrtle twigs to it, then clasp the whole bundle to the etrog and hold it as we sing the Hallel in praise of the God Who made the world and its bounty, but we do so specifically not outdoors in the context of all that bounty but indoors…in our wholly indoor sanctuaries where, unlike in the sukkah, we do not feel ourselves half-inside and half-outside at all, but fully and comfortably indoors.
It’s an
outside/inside sort of festival the Jews celebrate as the world surrenders to putrefaction
in a blaze of glory that itself symbolizes the degree to which life itself can
only truly be loved by those who understand its brevity, its ephemeral evanescence,
its essential transitoriness. And so
what we are left with as we contemplate our festival in the context of its
season is the notion that, truly, nothing is ever as it seems. The security of
inside and the insecurity of outside meet and coalesce in the even more basic
truth that true security in the world can only come from within, from faith,
from confidence born of the knowledge that there is a God in heaven Who watches
over the world and Whose essential nature constitutes its moral core. The beauty of the autumn leaves meets the
underlying knowledge that what that beauty really signals is the
beginning of the end, the death of life, the onset of the harshest season of
the year…and those two notions somehow yield—or should yield—the
realization that, far more than spring is birth and winter death, the cycle is
the thing…and the notion that the world cycles through its seasons in an
endless progression of birth and death, of growth and decline, of gorgeousness
and bareness, has at its heart a deep truth that the wise will willingly
embrace: that creation itself is meant neither to terrify nor to embolden, but
to prompt feelings of deep gratitude and beholdenness to the Creator, author of
the earth’s bounty and its cycles of life and death.
And so, with
those confused, not fully congruent ideas embraced and proclaimed as simple
truths (the hallmark of the successful preacher being precisely that ability to
make incongruous ideas sound as though they fit together so well that only a
fool would feel the need to choose one over the other), I wish you all a
satisfying, meaningful, and spiritually transformational Sukkot this year. At
Shelter Rock, we’re having about 350 to dinner in our beautiful and elegantly
decorated giant sukkah. Tomorrow, lunch will be served serially (not
cereally, or at least mostly not) in a succession of neighborhood sukkot including
Joan’s and my own. Throughout the festival, we will be eating and drinking in
these flimsy backyard huts that will paradoxically make us feel more, not less,
secure that the world is a place of majesty and beauty, and that creation itself—and
particularly in its lush gorgeousness—is the only adequate mirror in which
mortals can catch even a fleeting glimpse of their Creator. And in that thought rests the beauty and the
profundity of one of the great festivals the Torah offers us as respites from our
workaday lives. I wish you all a chag sameiach and, one last time, a shanah
tovah for you and your families.
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